She doesn't mean to. Doesn't want to, but what she wants and what her body is reacting to are two different things and it is the most frustrating feeling in the world.
After those first horrible months -- trips to the therapist included -- she'd come to a point and said Enough. She didn't want one crappy and unfortunate event to determine the rest of who she was. So she fought back, she learned to battle back the nightmares until they didn't bother her anymore. She trained herself, found herself a group of unlikely friends and took confronting her demons to a whole different level.
But she'd never let anyone this close. She'd thought about wanting to, of course. But on her terms, when she was good and ready and she'd gained back the confidence that it would be more than just good. It would be fantastic.
Instead, she finds herself struggling against the shakes and she presses her mouth against Tommy's shoulder and breathes in, counting back from ten. ]
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She doesn't mean to. Doesn't want to, but what she wants and what her body is reacting to are two different things and it is the most frustrating feeling in the world.
After those first horrible months -- trips to the therapist included -- she'd come to a point and said Enough. She didn't want one crappy and unfortunate event to determine the rest of who she was. So she fought back, she learned to battle back the nightmares until they didn't bother her anymore. She trained herself, found herself a group of unlikely friends and took confronting her demons to a whole different level.
But she'd never let anyone this close. She'd thought about wanting to, of course. But on her terms, when she was good and ready and she'd gained back the confidence that it would be more than just good. It would be fantastic.
Instead, she finds herself struggling against the shakes and she presses her mouth against Tommy's shoulder and breathes in, counting back from ten. ]